31.12.10
Inspiration
This last week I have been told by a couple of people that I inspire them. What an amazing compliment to receive and it warms my heart that people have used this word in reference to me. Thank you for that. I am still staying focused on maintaining a clear and present mind. I have found it very interesting to watch my mind , my body and influences in my life try to drag me my back to the negativity. I'm sorry but I know I'm on the right path because I feel it in my bones. I feel it with every ounce of my being. I refuse to be clouded by a feeling that brings no value to my life.
What does that feel like you ask? it feels inspiring ! Inspiring to have control of my mind and of my soul and of my overall well being. To have pure focus on what is best for me will ultimately lead to what is best for everything in my life.
I sit here at my desk after a brisk cold walk (which I forced myself to do) to the post office and a nice relaxing hot bath after that brisk walk with motivation and clarity to lead me into 2011. I had already set my winter solstice resolutions in an earlier blog post. Now I will set my 2011 goals today. Again all very attainable realistic goals. My focus is how wonderful I will feel at this time next year knowing I have reached or exceeded my goals. My goal is not to be better then anyone else but to be the best person I need to be in order to maintain a fully present life.
I had just finished reading an article (yes in oprah's magazine) on goal setting and she had said to take your noun-verb goal and add to that goal 3 adjectives describing how you wish to feel after attaining those goals. Now focus on those feelings and let those feelings guide you through the next year. I am also taking my three simple goals for the year and will wake up each day with the focus on how is this day helping me reach my goals? what can I do today to reach these goals?
I am very excited for 2011 as this will be the year for the first time in my life that I will succeed for me
What does that feel like you ask? it feels inspiring ! Inspiring to have control of my mind and of my soul and of my overall well being. To have pure focus on what is best for me will ultimately lead to what is best for everything in my life.
I sit here at my desk after a brisk cold walk (which I forced myself to do) to the post office and a nice relaxing hot bath after that brisk walk with motivation and clarity to lead me into 2011. I had already set my winter solstice resolutions in an earlier blog post. Now I will set my 2011 goals today. Again all very attainable realistic goals. My focus is how wonderful I will feel at this time next year knowing I have reached or exceeded my goals. My goal is not to be better then anyone else but to be the best person I need to be in order to maintain a fully present life.
I had just finished reading an article (yes in oprah's magazine) on goal setting and she had said to take your noun-verb goal and add to that goal 3 adjectives describing how you wish to feel after attaining those goals. Now focus on those feelings and let those feelings guide you through the next year. I am also taking my three simple goals for the year and will wake up each day with the focus on how is this day helping me reach my goals? what can I do today to reach these goals?
I am very excited for 2011 as this will be the year for the first time in my life that I will succeed for me
30.12.10
29.12.10
Blow by Blow
Was just dealt another tough work blow today with a listing that was to come up on Tuesday and was sold from underneath me over the Christmas holidays. What can I do? what should I do? The frustration and anger is over coming me. I know I need to feel this but I also know I need to release this quickly . I had to come to my blog to get this off of my chest in a positive way. So I have Glee music on in the background as I type because I know Glee always makes me smile.
I feel a fire burning in my belly I need to harness this energy to move forward and take charge of my career. I need to keep focused and clear because I do know I am on the right path. These work blows are here for a reason. What are the reasons? Maybe it's purely to give me this fire in my belly and challenge my faith in my self confidence. I will not be brought back down. I refuse to go back to the darkness. My light was on a dimmer switch now I have the switch changed out to a toggle switch with a tape over it so it can not be turned off.
I am already feeling better typing. The next few days will be focused on attainable goal setting . I am anxious to see what the future has in hold for me now that I am investing in my future.
Staying positive on a tough day.
I feel a fire burning in my belly I need to harness this energy to move forward and take charge of my career. I need to keep focused and clear because I do know I am on the right path. These work blows are here for a reason. What are the reasons? Maybe it's purely to give me this fire in my belly and challenge my faith in my self confidence. I will not be brought back down. I refuse to go back to the darkness. My light was on a dimmer switch now I have the switch changed out to a toggle switch with a tape over it so it can not be turned off.
I am already feeling better typing. The next few days will be focused on attainable goal setting . I am anxious to see what the future has in hold for me now that I am investing in my future.
Staying positive on a tough day.
28.12.10
Money
The positive mind.
What a wonderful couple of days! The 26th was spent enjoying a coffee/tea with my mom , negotiating on a sandwich at sobey's and spending the night with two of my oldest and dearest girlfriends. I realize so much the importance of friends in my life and cherish these relationships on so many different levels. My group of friends are so diverse yet everyone of them seems to bring out a different Jen and a different need in me to see them. I can't help but sit back and reflect on how fortunate I am to have this diversity in my life. I want to invest more into these friendships no matter how far they live from me. There is no excuse for losing contact with these special people in my life.
There is something about being so comfortable with your friends that you can all sing karaoke Glee music all night regardless of how tone def I may be. I may not have much of a voice left but I do still have a smile on my face and a positive clear mind going into the 27th. Which I most definitely needed for this challenging day.
I was presented with a difficult work challenge of my new buyer not wanting to continue with her purchase over Christmas. So I prepared all the information I could reassuring her what an amazing investment she was making . (it really was a great deal) I had discussed with my mortgage broker Kevin Suddaby about this and became armed with all of the actual numbers. I shared all this information with her and she had still decided not to continue. Of course I was disappointed (how could I not be?) but within a minute of driving away from my client I only had positive thoughts. I thought about what a great job I did for her and when she is ready to purchase I will be there to help her. I thought about why this client had so suddenly come into my life. I believe she was there to remind me of the joy and love and passion I have for my job and for my clients. She was an amazing Christmas gift to me and exactly what I subconsciously asked for and needed.
I finished the 27th at another girlfriends house for the night with my kids. We always have such amazing spiritual conversations and I believe we both kind of recharge off of each other with these conversations. I always leave her house feeling refreshed and clearer in my mind.
Today was extra special! We had spent a much delayed Christmas at my mom and her boyfriends house for lunch and more gifts for my much loved kids. I was also touched and surprised that they had given me a stocking and gifts knowing my Christmas was very minimal this year . How perfect that the one dollar scratch card that was in the stocking won me $100!!!! Thank you mom and thank you universe for keeping me positive .
Staying positive and still loving my blogs and my life.
There is something about being so comfortable with your friends that you can all sing karaoke Glee music all night regardless of how tone def I may be. I may not have much of a voice left but I do still have a smile on my face and a positive clear mind going into the 27th. Which I most definitely needed for this challenging day.
I was presented with a difficult work challenge of my new buyer not wanting to continue with her purchase over Christmas. So I prepared all the information I could reassuring her what an amazing investment she was making . (it really was a great deal) I had discussed with my mortgage broker Kevin Suddaby about this and became armed with all of the actual numbers. I shared all this information with her and she had still decided not to continue. Of course I was disappointed (how could I not be?) but within a minute of driving away from my client I only had positive thoughts. I thought about what a great job I did for her and when she is ready to purchase I will be there to help her. I thought about why this client had so suddenly come into my life. I believe she was there to remind me of the joy and love and passion I have for my job and for my clients. She was an amazing Christmas gift to me and exactly what I subconsciously asked for and needed.
I finished the 27th at another girlfriends house for the night with my kids. We always have such amazing spiritual conversations and I believe we both kind of recharge off of each other with these conversations. I always leave her house feeling refreshed and clearer in my mind.
Today was extra special! We had spent a much delayed Christmas at my mom and her boyfriends house for lunch and more gifts for my much loved kids. I was also touched and surprised that they had given me a stocking and gifts knowing my Christmas was very minimal this year . How perfect that the one dollar scratch card that was in the stocking won me $100!!!! Thank you mom and thank you universe for keeping me positive .
Staying positive and still loving my blogs and my life.
26.12.10
Blue
Ann Taylor shirt dress
Staying positive on the most wonderful time of the year
Merry Christmas little blog.
Thank you for being here for me everyday for the last week. I know it is this clarity of mind that has helped me stay focused and positive during what could of been a very tough Christmas for me. This was my choice to enjoy Christmas this year and not get lost in the numerous negative blows that were dealt to me on Christmas Eve. I am not saying that I didn't shed a few frustrated tears that day because I did. What I am saying is even during those tears I was conscious enough to allow the tears but still running through my head was the need to stay positive.
So what did I do to stay positive? I focused on the good parts of the days. On the amazing deal my client got on her condo and the fact that I received the final contract at 6pm on Christmas Eve. I watched Zoolander well I wrapped presents (just because I could !) I was so touched that a gift and stocking was left on my front porch. The fact that somebody would drive from Calgary in the middle of the night , just to put a smile on my face on Christmas morning . How thoughtful is that?! The excitement in my children at 4 in the morning can only make you smile. The joy I got from cooking a big Christmas dinner for my family and friends. My day was truly wonderful .
When I focused on only the positives of the day I was able to deflect any negativity that came my way. I was prepared to deal with a work concern that came first thing this morning with a smile on my face and a positive thought that "everything would work out just fine"
That is the only way to start my days.
Staying positive and looking forward to a girls night tonight (and maybe a full nights sleep!)
Thank you for being here for me everyday for the last week. I know it is this clarity of mind that has helped me stay focused and positive during what could of been a very tough Christmas for me. This was my choice to enjoy Christmas this year and not get lost in the numerous negative blows that were dealt to me on Christmas Eve. I am not saying that I didn't shed a few frustrated tears that day because I did. What I am saying is even during those tears I was conscious enough to allow the tears but still running through my head was the need to stay positive.
So what did I do to stay positive? I focused on the good parts of the days. On the amazing deal my client got on her condo and the fact that I received the final contract at 6pm on Christmas Eve. I watched Zoolander well I wrapped presents (just because I could !) I was so touched that a gift and stocking was left on my front porch. The fact that somebody would drive from Calgary in the middle of the night , just to put a smile on my face on Christmas morning . How thoughtful is that?! The excitement in my children at 4 in the morning can only make you smile. The joy I got from cooking a big Christmas dinner for my family and friends. My day was truly wonderful .
When I focused on only the positives of the day I was able to deflect any negativity that came my way. I was prepared to deal with a work concern that came first thing this morning with a smile on my face and a positive thought that "everything would work out just fine"
That is the only way to start my days.
Staying positive and looking forward to a girls night tonight (and maybe a full nights sleep!)
24.12.10
Zoolander FREAK GAS FIGHT ACCIDENT
Everyone has those rainy day movies that always put a smile on their face. This is my go to movie. I really do not know how many times I have seen it but this particular scene always makes me laugh!!
Gratitude Cards
So Christmas cards have haunted me for many years. I love to receive them however selfishly find them a chore to write and address. I think (no I now know) why that is. It's society giving me a dead line telling me what I must do and by when. I realized I really don't do well with imposed upon deadlines. I basically just mentally block out the demands on me. You need to have this book report done by Monday Jen or you need to start selling houses Jen. Don't tell this passive aggressive person what to do. I'll show you I just won't do it! regardless if I know it needs to happen. I sub consciously sabotage myself.
I am aware this is not the healthiest way to live a fully present life but it was really all I knew. I need to come to the obvious answers myself with a clear mind. Not have someone drilling into my mind what I should and should not be doing and by when.
Wow off topic anyways back to the vile Christmas cards that I love to receive but despise sending. This year instead of Christmas cards I have vowed to make Gratitude cards. Not narcissistic cards that tell you what my family and I did all year because if you truly are someone close in my life you already know my comings and goings . Gratitude cards being cards I send out when I choose to friends ,family and clients just letting them know how much they are appreciated. I really do appreciate so many people in my life on so many different levels. I want to start letting them know how wonderful they are.
Such a beautiful day today a great day to start my Christmas shopping or should I say gratitude shopping.
I am aware this is not the healthiest way to live a fully present life but it was really all I knew. I need to come to the obvious answers myself with a clear mind. Not have someone drilling into my mind what I should and should not be doing and by when.
Wow off topic anyways back to the vile Christmas cards that I love to receive but despise sending. This year instead of Christmas cards I have vowed to make Gratitude cards. Not narcissistic cards that tell you what my family and I did all year because if you truly are someone close in my life you already know my comings and goings . Gratitude cards being cards I send out when I choose to friends ,family and clients just letting them know how much they are appreciated. I really do appreciate so many people in my life on so many different levels. I want to start letting them know how wonderful they are.
Such a beautiful day today a great day to start my Christmas shopping or should I say gratitude shopping.
23.12.10
Stars align
Today could only be explained as the stars aligning for me. Everything falling into place and letting me know I am on the right path.
Once again I woke up (kid free) and posted on my blogs. What an amazing way to start my days . I found myself thinking about my blogs and therefore thinking about my life all day long. I worked all day and am still working into the evening and just could not stop smiling. Nobody could burst my bubble. I was dealt many negative blows today by a couple of people but not once did I take on that negativity. I continued to smile and could feel the joy in my heart guiding me and reassuring me. Their negativity is no longer my concern. I am too confident in my path in life and what the future has in store for me.
So several amazing things happened to me today. I wonder now if amazing things were happening to me in the past few months but I wasn't present enough in my life to appreciate them or notice them. So back to my amazing day :)
1.I helped a client find the perfect condo downtown. I was very excited to show her this unit as the pictures were fantastic and the unit had everything on her checklist. However, when we entered the unit it was a complete disaster zone complete with dog poop and garbage on the floor, dishes in the sink and food all over the counter. My wonderful client was able to see past the state of the unit and see the potential of this place for herself. We are still negotiating but I am certain the deal will come together for her.
2. I went to my office today ( a rare occurence for me but always a positive place to go and a place I plan on spending more time at) As I was going into the office our mortgage broker stopped me and told me what a great real estate blog I had started and that I was onto something. Such a compliment coming from him as I have always been impressed by his marketing techniques and his own websites.
3. Back to my real estate website. I had checked the stats on it this morning and after only 2 days of being active I have already had 150 page views!! I know I am onto something with this site.
4. When I was signing the contracts with my client up at starbucks (aka my remote office) After we had finished and she had left the only other customer in the store commented to me "how he has never seen someone so happy to be writing an offer" I thanked him and left smiling my gratitude is now shining through.
How could I not be positive?. Life is amazing. Thank you to everyone I came across today.
Once again I woke up (kid free) and posted on my blogs. What an amazing way to start my days . I found myself thinking about my blogs and therefore thinking about my life all day long. I worked all day and am still working into the evening and just could not stop smiling. Nobody could burst my bubble. I was dealt many negative blows today by a couple of people but not once did I take on that negativity. I continued to smile and could feel the joy in my heart guiding me and reassuring me. Their negativity is no longer my concern. I am too confident in my path in life and what the future has in store for me.
So several amazing things happened to me today. I wonder now if amazing things were happening to me in the past few months but I wasn't present enough in my life to appreciate them or notice them. So back to my amazing day :)
1.I helped a client find the perfect condo downtown. I was very excited to show her this unit as the pictures were fantastic and the unit had everything on her checklist. However, when we entered the unit it was a complete disaster zone complete with dog poop and garbage on the floor, dishes in the sink and food all over the counter. My wonderful client was able to see past the state of the unit and see the potential of this place for herself. We are still negotiating but I am certain the deal will come together for her.
2. I went to my office today ( a rare occurence for me but always a positive place to go and a place I plan on spending more time at) As I was going into the office our mortgage broker stopped me and told me what a great real estate blog I had started and that I was onto something. Such a compliment coming from him as I have always been impressed by his marketing techniques and his own websites.
3. Back to my real estate website. I had checked the stats on it this morning and after only 2 days of being active I have already had 150 page views!! I know I am onto something with this site.
4. When I was signing the contracts with my client up at starbucks (aka my remote office) After we had finished and she had left the only other customer in the store commented to me "how he has never seen someone so happy to be writing an offer" I thanked him and left smiling my gratitude is now shining through.
How could I not be positive?. Life is amazing. Thank you to everyone I came across today.
Frey Wille
I've had their little brochure posted on my bulletin board for 4 years now as a quiet reminder.
Glee Cast - Time Warp (Glee Cast Version)
Glee always puts a smile on my face almost as much as the memories of doing the Time Warp at the Calgary Cannons baseball club. In front of all 3000 fans in between the 3rd and 4th inning.
This little blog of mine
This little blog of mine I'm gonna make it shine. Or it's going to help me shine? Either way I think we'll work together.
On my lovely drive into Calgary yesterday (a mere 35 minute drive) I found myself thinking about my blogs and the excitement and focus they have already given me. It's seriously only been 4 days of these blogs and I would have to say I have already found a passion in them. Yes ,I said passion a feeling that consumes me for hours at a time and excites me to no end.
I know I am doing the right thing by having these blogs because I am so proud of them and they are such a reflection of who I truly am. However more importantly as I begin to share these blogs with friends and family I find myself not searching or asking them for acceptance of the blog. I value their opinions of course but I find that I am so confident with these blogs that I am not in search of anyone's approval. Such an amazing place for me to be as I have always concerned myself with what others thought of me and how I can please them.
This is my blog I hope you enjoy it because I sure do.
Keeping positive today.
On my lovely drive into Calgary yesterday (a mere 35 minute drive) I found myself thinking about my blogs and the excitement and focus they have already given me. It's seriously only been 4 days of these blogs and I would have to say I have already found a passion in them. Yes ,I said passion a feeling that consumes me for hours at a time and excites me to no end.
I know I am doing the right thing by having these blogs because I am so proud of them and they are such a reflection of who I truly am. However more importantly as I begin to share these blogs with friends and family I find myself not searching or asking them for acceptance of the blog. I value their opinions of course but I find that I am so confident with these blogs that I am not in search of anyone's approval. Such an amazing place for me to be as I have always concerned myself with what others thought of me and how I can please them.
This is my blog I hope you enjoy it because I sure do.
Keeping positive today.
22.12.10
Busy Day
So much to do today and I am so excited with the possibilities of this day.
I love that I have my two blogs to keep my mind active and healthy. I found myself laying in bed awake last night with so many thoughts for my blogs. It's funny another rough nights sleep but I woke up positive and looking forward to the day. So different from last week. I believe the difference is awareness to a healthy mind. It was so much easier for me to slip into the darkness for the past few months and feeling numb was better then feeling pain. Now that I am in the light I have no desire to go back. This is a conscious decision I am making everyday regardless of what is thrown my way.
Keeping positive.
I love that I have my two blogs to keep my mind active and healthy. I found myself laying in bed awake last night with so many thoughts for my blogs. It's funny another rough nights sleep but I woke up positive and looking forward to the day. So different from last week. I believe the difference is awareness to a healthy mind. It was so much easier for me to slip into the darkness for the past few months and feeling numb was better then feeling pain. Now that I am in the light I have no desire to go back. This is a conscious decision I am making everyday regardless of what is thrown my way.
Keeping positive.
21.12.10
Eureka
I have always considered light fixtures as an accessory to a home. People always comment on them and I find they help a house sparkle and stand out.
They really are stunning light fixtures and worth every penny and hour invested on the internet.
Work
I feel amazing right now prepping for a new client. Funny how all of a sudden I have clear head and a focused mind towards my future and a new client comes my way. Thank you universe for noticing my efforts and thank you to my past client who was kind enough to refer my services. I am so blessed by loyal clients, friends and family.
Keeping positive on a trying day.
Keeping positive on a trying day.
Passion
I had read in an Oprah Magazine a few months ago about searching for your passion. A passion being something you can lose yourself in for hours at a time. I really had to think about what my passion could be. As much as I love my job do I get lost in it for hours, not really.
So I made a trip to Kelowna to visit my mother in law and whenever I am in Kelowna I make it my purpose to stop into my favorite clothing store Frock clothing and I found myself completely lost in the store (not literally as it is a quaint little boutique) but lost in every little piece of clothing , all of the shoes and purses ,the jewelry and artwork. This store is a vintage clothing store with such an amazing variety of clothing ranging from the 40's tailored era all the way to todays crisp funkiness. I spent well over an hour looking at and trying on many of these fabulous pieces and ultimately finding my passion in vintage style clothes. I purchased a pair of gorgeous mid calf brown boots and lord only knows what I would of purchased if my budget permitted.
http://www.frockclothing.ca/
Now what to do with this new found passion? the possibilities are there.
So I made a trip to Kelowna to visit my mother in law and whenever I am in Kelowna I make it my purpose to stop into my favorite clothing store Frock clothing and I found myself completely lost in the store (not literally as it is a quaint little boutique) but lost in every little piece of clothing , all of the shoes and purses ,the jewelry and artwork. This store is a vintage clothing store with such an amazing variety of clothing ranging from the 40's tailored era all the way to todays crisp funkiness. I spent well over an hour looking at and trying on many of these fabulous pieces and ultimately finding my passion in vintage style clothes. I purchased a pair of gorgeous mid calf brown boots and lord only knows what I would of purchased if my budget permitted.
http://www.frockclothing.ca/
Now what to do with this new found passion? the possibilities are there.
Winter Solstice Resolution
Good Morning Blog,
[rez-uh-loo-shuh
Keeping positive
res·o·lu·tion
[rez-uh-loo-shuh
n] –noun
a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something. The act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
So I found myself focusing on January 1 ,2011 as a new beginning. 'I can't wait till 2010 is over' was a statement I was using on a daily basis. Why not take control of 2010 again? Like I had mentioned in my first post I had started 2010 owning my life and full of confidence. I am taking back control of 2010. Better late then never right?
Last night there was a lunar eclipse . Apparently the last time one had occurred on the winter solstice was 400 years ago. I had made the decision that sleep was more important to me then setting my alarm clock to watch this eclipse. I stand by this decision and am grateful to my friends who posted images of the eclipse on their facebook pages. My sleep was once again very much interrupted by a sick three old and a five year old with a nightmare. At this point in my life a much more worthy cause of waking up in the night.
So back to the resolution, it's such a hopeless cliche to have a January 1st resolution .Therefore why not set my resolutions today which also happens to be the Winter Solstice. Now the purpose of these resolutions is not to have unattainable goals but a resolve to change. Yes there are parts of my life that need tweaking and adjusting , now more so then ever. For the first time in a long time I have hope. Hope for the future with me and the kids, hope for my career, and most importantly hope for a clear and present mind.
I resolve:
-To continue blogging. As I find great clarity in it. Even though this is only day 3 of my blog I know this is what will guide me to a positive life and has already given me something to look forward to everyday.
-To embrace my friends and family and not be afraid to ask for help.
-To keep my house clean , as I find the cleanliness of my home is a pure reflection of the state of my mind. Even if I need to fake it and force myself to clean. I always feel better going to sleep with that clean mind.
I think that's good for now , I don't want to confuse these resolutions with goals. These are very attainable resolutions for me. I will also find a time to set my attainable baby step goals in the next few days.
Keeping positive
20.12.10
The cuff
What I am looking for from this Blog
I have a list of items that I would like to see on this blog , ideally all under separate tabs which I can add to. I'm certain the more I play with this blog the more I will figure out. If not I can always ask my resident computer expert Ian for some assistance. I know the more I play around on here the more I will figure out and the more neurons will connect.
So the tabs would appear as such
-What I know for sure
-Pretty little things
-Smiles
-Gratitude
-Links
-Food
-Things I am Learning
-Things I have Learned
-Friendships
-Quotes
-My Goals
-Travel
-Business
So there we have it, all items positive and a place I can go to to keep my mind active and put a smile on my face (and hopefully yours)
So the tabs would appear as such
-What I know for sure
-Pretty little things
-Smiles
-Gratitude
-Links
-Food
-Things I am Learning
-Things I have Learned
-Friendships
-Quotes
-My Goals
-Travel
-Business
So there we have it, all items positive and a place I can go to to keep my mind active and put a smile on my face (and hopefully yours)
Quotes
One important key to success is
self-confidence. An important key to
self-confidence is preparation."
- Arthur Ashe
So very true and so very reflective of where I am and where I am going.
self-confidence. An important key to
self-confidence is preparation."
- Arthur Ashe
So very true and so very reflective of where I am and where I am going.
Connecting the Nuerons
I believe that brain exercises are just as important as physical exercises . Keeping your mind active and sharp. I use www.lumosity.com I can actually feel my brain working and what I think the nuerons connecting and reconnecting . So much has been lost from lack of sleep and stress I need to keep my brain active. Then maybe actually keep my body active. Could you imagine?
Keeping positive today
Keeping positive today
Sleep
So I know 13 hours of sleep is a rare occurrence in my life. Yes it felt amazing and my mind was so clear and spinning with positive thoughts and possibilities of the future. So here's the challenge for me , last night I went to bed at 9:30 knowing I would be awake by 7. Geeze 10 hours of sleep would still be exceptional. Now when I laid my head down , I found it difficult to put my mind to rest with all the ideas and the excitement from the day. This is a problem I welcome in my life because more often then not I have found myself going to bed with no thoughts at all and very rarely dreaming . I looked at that as a sure fire sign of where my mind was, teetering on depression. I had read in a Oprah magazine a few months back someone break down being depressed as deep rest. This quote runs through my mind on a daily basis and was very much reflective of my day yesterday. So anyways I went bed at 9:30 fell asleep at around 11 and then was woken up numerous times in the night from both my dog and my three year old. Ultimately waking up at 7 with a very interrupted sleep.
So back to the challenge. Keeping focused and keeping my mind active, positive and productive even on those broken nights sleep. I woke up knowing what I need to do. I need to blog! I need to feel the neurons connecting in my brain and I need to go to bed tonight with thoughts spinning in my mind.
An amazing thing happened to me yesterday which can only be explained by how healthy my mind was yesterday and how productive I was with myself and with work. So I firmly believe the energy that I put out in the universe will come back to me ten fold. If I am focusing on the negatives in my life or zoning out in front of the computer all day the universe is going to return that to me with more stresses . If I focus on myself positively with a clear mind the universe will return that to me . So I started this blog yesterday as well a a real estate blog realestatejen.blogspot.com. I received an email at about 9pm from a past client referring a co-worker of hers to me to help her with the purchase of a condo. This is the universe rewarding my efforts and my energy. Therefore even more so did I feel the need to blog today and keep my energy positive.
I emailed this new client 40 potential condos this morning. Gosh does it feel amazing to be working and not just trying to sell my own house. I also reduced the price of our house last night by 50k in hopes of finding that buyer.
Here's to keeping a positive mind regardless of the amount of sleep I get.
So back to the challenge. Keeping focused and keeping my mind active, positive and productive even on those broken nights sleep. I woke up knowing what I need to do. I need to blog! I need to feel the neurons connecting in my brain and I need to go to bed tonight with thoughts spinning in my mind.
An amazing thing happened to me yesterday which can only be explained by how healthy my mind was yesterday and how productive I was with myself and with work. So I firmly believe the energy that I put out in the universe will come back to me ten fold. If I am focusing on the negatives in my life or zoning out in front of the computer all day the universe is going to return that to me with more stresses . If I focus on myself positively with a clear mind the universe will return that to me . So I started this blog yesterday as well a a real estate blog realestatejen.blogspot.com. I received an email at about 9pm from a past client referring a co-worker of hers to me to help her with the purchase of a condo. This is the universe rewarding my efforts and my energy. Therefore even more so did I feel the need to blog today and keep my energy positive.
I emailed this new client 40 potential condos this morning. Gosh does it feel amazing to be working and not just trying to sell my own house. I also reduced the price of our house last night by 50k in hopes of finding that buyer.
Here's to keeping a positive mind regardless of the amount of sleep I get.
19.12.10
All things Pretty
13 hours of sleep
Well here I am on December 18th looking back at 2010. After 13 hours of sleep I woke up with a clear head and a need to express myself in a positive way.
I have decided to call this the 'year of discovery' Was it a good year? At first I am tempted to say no this year was actually the worst time of my life. However I feel I must look much deeper then the surface. I am going to only look at all the positive effects of this year.
Without going into too much detail I did start the year off owning my life. Feeling empowered and ready to take on the world just me and my little ones. That sense of empowerment is a feeling I need to hold onto and be reminded of when I get lost in the darkness.
I developed a new friendship in February with Michelle. An exceptional woman I've known socially and professionally for about five years. Having known her for so long and also given the facts that our children are the same age it's odd that our friendship only blossomed this year. I believe my life has been blessed by her at this time to help guide me and keep me focused on what is truly important in life, my kids,my family and my friends. Michelle walks through life with her feet firmly planted on the ground and very confident with who she is in life. I am so fortunate that her and her family have welcomed me and my kids into their lives. Numerous dinner parties with copious amounts of wine later they are people that I truly cherish in my life.
March started and ended perfectly . I opened March with a slumber birthday party for my 31st birthday. I invited 6 of my closest friends, all so very different but all so perfect for the evening. No drama , amazing food, belly laughs and truth or dare jenga. Was exactly what I needed on that day. To be surrounded by people I love and respect on so many different levels and who can all make me smile. I finished March with a week long trip to Nuevo Vallarta with one of my oldest friends Sharon at her families stunning condo on the beach. Sharon and I travel very well together, pretty much by just going with the flow. No pressure to please the other person as we seem to just be on the same page.
So I promise I'm not going to go through all 12 months of 2010.
I found April , May and June were months of hibernation for me. Yes I worked a bit, not as much as I normally would for that time of year. Yes I was present in my children's life. Yes I put my dream house on mls and admitted that chapter of my life was over. However I know I was in a daze and not investing fully into the person I am and the person I want to be. Maybe a sense of mourning the life that should of been , an inevitable emotion that was pushed to the side for so long.
The summer was a summer of new begininings (or at least that was the plan). Let's start the summer with a whirlwind girls trip to Chicago. A celebration of a milestone birthday for Heather , an escape from motherhood for Liza and Michelle the instigator of the trip/ wine mule. For me the trip was embracing these friendships and a sense of exploration. A new found love for Jazz music and an on going love of food. Although it was a short trip I felt I had a full Chicago experience.
When I returned I was blessed with my girlfriend Tracy and her daughters moving into my house in Nanton for the summer months. My friendship with Tracy has also been one of interest to me. We have known each other for 10 years now, we were once roommates,she was a bridesmaid at our wedding , neighbour on my street (inadvertently in the same style of home) and a top producing realtor in my industry. Our friendship has been one that has always been there even if we only talked once or twice a year. This summer took that friendship to the new and exciting next level. I believe our friendship has essentially been on the back burner for 10 years, waiting for this period of our lives when we would truly need each other and be able to appreciate each other fully. Both of us were in a state of transition in our lives and found that we were both starting to embrace our spiritual sides. This house in Nanton is incredibly peaceful and tranquil so the perfect atmosphere for spiritual enlightenment. Together we were able to share books,quotes,goals,laughter, front porch morning coffees and lots of tears. I was so grateful that her daughters were here to help my children enjoy their summer to the fullest. Now what Tracy and I have developed is so much deeper then being best friends it's more of a sister like relationship. I know we can call each other at anytime of the day or night. We can be brutally honest with each other and laugh about it later. We can talk about absolutely everything in our lives with no judgement just support and a positive ear. This summer was not an easy one for me however I do now know would have been impossible without her love and friendship.
September I found was a month of family. My son started kindergarten in Nanton as our house had still not sold. How fortunate we are to have such a wonderful school for him to attend. Another difficult thing to leave behind in Nanton when the time comes. My sister Karen got married on September 25th so much of the month was focused on the planning of the wedding and the inevitable drama that can be associated with weddings. So grateful to my friends Tracy, Sharon and Kim for helping with the planning , the set -up and the organization of the wedding. The day was beautiful and of course so was Karen. I found myself in my element with the decorating and styling of the hall as well as the minute to minute stresses of the day that I was able to take on as the maid of honor and hopefully helped make this day special for Karen and Trace. Me and my 'short' costume (yes I said costume) had a wonderful day that was made wonderful by those 3 amazing friends of mine.
Onto the fall, Tracy and her girls moved out on October first. I was sad to see them leave but also looking forward to having the house to myself and the kids and moving forward in life as the three of us. The house did end up with a conditional sale which brought hope and excitement to me that I could finally close this chapter of my life and move back to Calgary to be closer to my friends, family and work. Unfortunately the deal fell through leaving me disappointed and frustrated. I found myself somewhat lost in life this fall I focused on yard work as a way to clear my mind. As well as forcing myself to be social, sometimes difficult to get dressed in the morning let alone put on a smile for my friends in a social setting. However I knew it was important for my well being and especially my children's well being. Glad that I still had friends who still invited me out and had other outlets like sorority and bookclub to keep me distracted. I had been dating a little but with a realization that I need to keep my focus on myself and not on the need to suppress my lonely nights.
So here I am after 13 hours of sleep looking back at 2010 finally with a clear head and an outlet to express myself. This blog will not always be an outlet for venting but a positive place for people to visit and share in my joys and my travels through life now with a clear head.
I want to finish each blog with something quirky but not generic like 'cheers' or 'xoxo' something that is more me. Any suggestions?
I have decided to call this the 'year of discovery' Was it a good year? At first I am tempted to say no this year was actually the worst time of my life. However I feel I must look much deeper then the surface. I am going to only look at all the positive effects of this year.
Without going into too much detail I did start the year off owning my life. Feeling empowered and ready to take on the world just me and my little ones. That sense of empowerment is a feeling I need to hold onto and be reminded of when I get lost in the darkness.
I developed a new friendship in February with Michelle. An exceptional woman I've known socially and professionally for about five years. Having known her for so long and also given the facts that our children are the same age it's odd that our friendship only blossomed this year. I believe my life has been blessed by her at this time to help guide me and keep me focused on what is truly important in life, my kids,my family and my friends. Michelle walks through life with her feet firmly planted on the ground and very confident with who she is in life. I am so fortunate that her and her family have welcomed me and my kids into their lives. Numerous dinner parties with copious amounts of wine later they are people that I truly cherish in my life.
March started and ended perfectly . I opened March with a slumber birthday party for my 31st birthday. I invited 6 of my closest friends, all so very different but all so perfect for the evening. No drama , amazing food, belly laughs and truth or dare jenga. Was exactly what I needed on that day. To be surrounded by people I love and respect on so many different levels and who can all make me smile. I finished March with a week long trip to Nuevo Vallarta with one of my oldest friends Sharon at her families stunning condo on the beach. Sharon and I travel very well together, pretty much by just going with the flow. No pressure to please the other person as we seem to just be on the same page.
So I promise I'm not going to go through all 12 months of 2010.
I found April , May and June were months of hibernation for me. Yes I worked a bit, not as much as I normally would for that time of year. Yes I was present in my children's life. Yes I put my dream house on mls and admitted that chapter of my life was over. However I know I was in a daze and not investing fully into the person I am and the person I want to be. Maybe a sense of mourning the life that should of been , an inevitable emotion that was pushed to the side for so long.
The summer was a summer of new begininings (or at least that was the plan). Let's start the summer with a whirlwind girls trip to Chicago. A celebration of a milestone birthday for Heather , an escape from motherhood for Liza and Michelle the instigator of the trip/ wine mule. For me the trip was embracing these friendships and a sense of exploration. A new found love for Jazz music and an on going love of food. Although it was a short trip I felt I had a full Chicago experience.
When I returned I was blessed with my girlfriend Tracy and her daughters moving into my house in Nanton for the summer months. My friendship with Tracy has also been one of interest to me. We have known each other for 10 years now, we were once roommates,she was a bridesmaid at our wedding , neighbour on my street (inadvertently in the same style of home) and a top producing realtor in my industry. Our friendship has been one that has always been there even if we only talked once or twice a year. This summer took that friendship to the new and exciting next level. I believe our friendship has essentially been on the back burner for 10 years, waiting for this period of our lives when we would truly need each other and be able to appreciate each other fully. Both of us were in a state of transition in our lives and found that we were both starting to embrace our spiritual sides. This house in Nanton is incredibly peaceful and tranquil so the perfect atmosphere for spiritual enlightenment. Together we were able to share books,quotes,goals,laughter, front porch morning coffees and lots of tears. I was so grateful that her daughters were here to help my children enjoy their summer to the fullest. Now what Tracy and I have developed is so much deeper then being best friends it's more of a sister like relationship. I know we can call each other at anytime of the day or night. We can be brutally honest with each other and laugh about it later. We can talk about absolutely everything in our lives with no judgement just support and a positive ear. This summer was not an easy one for me however I do now know would have been impossible without her love and friendship.
September I found was a month of family. My son started kindergarten in Nanton as our house had still not sold. How fortunate we are to have such a wonderful school for him to attend. Another difficult thing to leave behind in Nanton when the time comes. My sister Karen got married on September 25th so much of the month was focused on the planning of the wedding and the inevitable drama that can be associated with weddings. So grateful to my friends Tracy, Sharon and Kim for helping with the planning , the set -up and the organization of the wedding. The day was beautiful and of course so was Karen. I found myself in my element with the decorating and styling of the hall as well as the minute to minute stresses of the day that I was able to take on as the maid of honor and hopefully helped make this day special for Karen and Trace. Me and my 'short' costume (yes I said costume) had a wonderful day that was made wonderful by those 3 amazing friends of mine.
Onto the fall, Tracy and her girls moved out on October first. I was sad to see them leave but also looking forward to having the house to myself and the kids and moving forward in life as the three of us. The house did end up with a conditional sale which brought hope and excitement to me that I could finally close this chapter of my life and move back to Calgary to be closer to my friends, family and work. Unfortunately the deal fell through leaving me disappointed and frustrated. I found myself somewhat lost in life this fall I focused on yard work as a way to clear my mind. As well as forcing myself to be social, sometimes difficult to get dressed in the morning let alone put on a smile for my friends in a social setting. However I knew it was important for my well being and especially my children's well being. Glad that I still had friends who still invited me out and had other outlets like sorority and bookclub to keep me distracted. I had been dating a little but with a realization that I need to keep my focus on myself and not on the need to suppress my lonely nights.
So here I am after 13 hours of sleep looking back at 2010 finally with a clear head and an outlet to express myself. This blog will not always be an outlet for venting but a positive place for people to visit and share in my joys and my travels through life now with a clear head.
I want to finish each blog with something quirky but not generic like 'cheers' or 'xoxo' something that is more me. Any suggestions?
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