8.3.11
2.3.11
An Open Blog
I have to say I am so happy to share this blog with everyone and anyone who wants to take time out of their day to read my ramblings. I love the support and comments that I have been given and am so blessed to have my 6 followers. It's so encouraging to receive emails wondering why I haven't posted. Don't be shy about reading my blog I would love to hear from you.
I decided to keep this blog open to everyone and easy to find on google for the simple reason that if I am able to find therapy in my writings, video clips and quotes then maybe it can help someone else as well. I have nothing to hide from my blog it's only a glimpse into my mind and a place for me (and anyone else who wants ) to stay and maintain a positive life and a focus on a truly conscious mind.
As I travel this journey feel free to come for the ride. It's a very exciting ride as I become more aware of the positive world , the positive people and the pretty little things that I choose to surround myself with.
Staying positive today with my blog friends those who I know and those who choose to read incognito.
I decided to keep this blog open to everyone and easy to find on google for the simple reason that if I am able to find therapy in my writings, video clips and quotes then maybe it can help someone else as well. I have nothing to hide from my blog it's only a glimpse into my mind and a place for me (and anyone else who wants ) to stay and maintain a positive life and a focus on a truly conscious mind.
As I travel this journey feel free to come for the ride. It's a very exciting ride as I become more aware of the positive world , the positive people and the pretty little things that I choose to surround myself with.
Staying positive today with my blog friends those who I know and those who choose to read incognito.
27.2.11
Value
Value as defined - relative worth, merit, or importance
Just a heads up- this is going to be a long post feel free to read it in a couple of sessions.
Sitting here today reflecting on the last month and the one word that can describe it in a hole would be 'Value'. The value of my life, the value of what I choose to bring into my life and the value of what I am giving in life. This one little word has transformed me.
The Value of my Sorority-
When I returned from Colorado my sorority and I were in the mists of planning the annual Nanton Women's Conference (which was a week away). There was lot's to be done within the week to prepare for the conference and I had pretty much devoted the week to the Women's Conference. I was also asked by the organizing committee to be the MC for the fashion show. Completely out of my comfort zone , however one of my goals for the year (as discussed in past posts) . So I agreed to MC with eagerness, fear and the quote that is posted on my wall in the back of my mind- "If you are afraid, you are thinking of yourself"
By the time set up on Friday had started there were weather warnings of blizzard conditions for the day of the conference. We were concerned about attendance (we had sold about 80 tickets) and of course that our speakers would be able to attend.
The day of the conference was so powerful for me. Even though the weather was horrid, everything just fell into place we had just over 60 people attend, all of the speakers and models showed up . Some highlights of the day for me:
-Seeing and feeling the passion in the speakers as they discussed and showed us their presentations.
-The energy of the women who attended the conference . Women of all ages together for the day embracing what we had prepared for them, participating in the exercises and helping to raise $3400 for the chairties of Nanton.
-Arranging and MCing the fashion show. I was nervous and it showed but I did it!! It's a start and I can only get better.
-The women of sorority working as one throughout the day to make the conference seamless.
-Spending the evening after the conference getting to know a new friend from sorority and knowing I really could of stayed till 3 in the morning and we wouldn't of run out of things to talk about.
On Valentines day the sorority did a progressive dinner , being the only single member of sorority I am grateful that I offered to host the dessert / party. Rather then avoid the dinner (like I would of in past) I embraced it and had a wonderful time!! I laughed pretty much the entire night . What a wonderful group of people they are.
Now that I am finally allowing myself to be a part of them. I am so glad that I stayed in sorority over the last year (as it was difficult ) but I believe in my life or a reason. Only took me just over a year to realize that..
The Value of Nanton-
A town that I have been a part of for almost five years now and have admittedly never fully understood or took the time to understand my place.
After the experience of the Women's conference , the following week I went to a fundraiser for a well known family in the town. This fundraiser was put on to help their 24 year old son live a more independent life after a very tragic accident back in September left him paralyzed.
I have never experienced something so powerful in my life. This small little town of 2500 people and surrounding farms came together like nothing I have ever seen. There was over 200 silent auction items, over a 100 live auction items and probably over 700 people (well over capacity ) at the community center raising funds for Terry. The energy in the room was intense and exciting everyone was there with the purpose of helping this family . The auctions were all going well over retail value and this phenomenal town came together and raised well over $100,000 for Terry.
These two events in Nanton helped me solidify my place in Nanton and my need to stay in Nanton. Once I realized this is where I am meant to be a complete mind shift towards the town happened. A sense of belonging, a sense of wanting to get to know the people , a sense of letting people know me. As well as a sense of the future for me and the kids in Nanton. Did you see that I used the word "future" ? Yes a small glimpse into my future needs rather then always just living day by day.
The Value of giving-
A new approach in life for me. It really doesn't cost me much money just a sense of awareness of the needs of people in my life. A sense of appreciation for the people in my life both old and new.
Knowing that I have something of value to share with people is actually a nerve racking experience for me. I'm trying to process why, when I offer or do something for someone my nerves before hand are over whelming. Isn't that bizarre? I think maybe it is because it's out of my comfort zone to be so aware of other peoples needs, I probably want to make sure I'm doing it right and it's probably because I'm just doing it without over thinking the results.
Staying positive today, glad to be blogging again as there is value in expressing my thoughts
Just a heads up- this is going to be a long post feel free to read it in a couple of sessions.
Sitting here today reflecting on the last month and the one word that can describe it in a hole would be 'Value'. The value of my life, the value of what I choose to bring into my life and the value of what I am giving in life. This one little word has transformed me.
The Value of my Sorority-
When I returned from Colorado my sorority and I were in the mists of planning the annual Nanton Women's Conference (which was a week away). There was lot's to be done within the week to prepare for the conference and I had pretty much devoted the week to the Women's Conference. I was also asked by the organizing committee to be the MC for the fashion show. Completely out of my comfort zone , however one of my goals for the year (as discussed in past posts) . So I agreed to MC with eagerness, fear and the quote that is posted on my wall in the back of my mind- "If you are afraid, you are thinking of yourself"
By the time set up on Friday had started there were weather warnings of blizzard conditions for the day of the conference. We were concerned about attendance (we had sold about 80 tickets) and of course that our speakers would be able to attend.
The day of the conference was so powerful for me. Even though the weather was horrid, everything just fell into place we had just over 60 people attend, all of the speakers and models showed up . Some highlights of the day for me:
-Seeing and feeling the passion in the speakers as they discussed and showed us their presentations.
-The energy of the women who attended the conference . Women of all ages together for the day embracing what we had prepared for them, participating in the exercises and helping to raise $3400 for the chairties of Nanton.
-Arranging and MCing the fashion show. I was nervous and it showed but I did it!! It's a start and I can only get better.
-The women of sorority working as one throughout the day to make the conference seamless.
-Spending the evening after the conference getting to know a new friend from sorority and knowing I really could of stayed till 3 in the morning and we wouldn't of run out of things to talk about.
On Valentines day the sorority did a progressive dinner , being the only single member of sorority I am grateful that I offered to host the dessert / party. Rather then avoid the dinner (like I would of in past) I embraced it and had a wonderful time!! I laughed pretty much the entire night . What a wonderful group of people they are.
Now that I am finally allowing myself to be a part of them. I am so glad that I stayed in sorority over the last year (as it was difficult ) but I believe in my life or a reason. Only took me just over a year to realize that..
The Value of Nanton-
A town that I have been a part of for almost five years now and have admittedly never fully understood or took the time to understand my place.
After the experience of the Women's conference , the following week I went to a fundraiser for a well known family in the town. This fundraiser was put on to help their 24 year old son live a more independent life after a very tragic accident back in September left him paralyzed.
I have never experienced something so powerful in my life. This small little town of 2500 people and surrounding farms came together like nothing I have ever seen. There was over 200 silent auction items, over a 100 live auction items and probably over 700 people (well over capacity ) at the community center raising funds for Terry. The energy in the room was intense and exciting everyone was there with the purpose of helping this family . The auctions were all going well over retail value and this phenomenal town came together and raised well over $100,000 for Terry.
These two events in Nanton helped me solidify my place in Nanton and my need to stay in Nanton. Once I realized this is where I am meant to be a complete mind shift towards the town happened. A sense of belonging, a sense of wanting to get to know the people , a sense of letting people know me. As well as a sense of the future for me and the kids in Nanton. Did you see that I used the word "future" ? Yes a small glimpse into my future needs rather then always just living day by day.
The Value of giving-
A new approach in life for me. It really doesn't cost me much money just a sense of awareness of the needs of people in my life. A sense of appreciation for the people in my life both old and new.
Knowing that I have something of value to share with people is actually a nerve racking experience for me. I'm trying to process why, when I offer or do something for someone my nerves before hand are over whelming. Isn't that bizarre? I think maybe it is because it's out of my comfort zone to be so aware of other peoples needs, I probably want to make sure I'm doing it right and it's probably because I'm just doing it without over thinking the results.
Staying positive today, glad to be blogging again as there is value in expressing my thoughts
26.2.11
Where have I been?
So as some of you may have noticed I haven't had a personal post for over a month, since I finished my course in Colorado. Why haven't I posted since that time you ask? I'm really not sure...
I do believe the course for me was life changing and my focus has been primarily on my business and on my life. The course helped me build an amazing business plan as well as a life plan (not in the course but something I took from it).
I have felt and this is going to sound odd. That my brain is full. It has reached it's maximum capacity. I got all this wonderful information in Colorado that is in the front of my mind right now. However, I feel like I am capable of only accepting positive things in my life. It's like the negative filter in my brain is set on high and not allowing any negative words or actions in. This may sound ideal but I find it frustrating at times. When I am confronted with an issue that needs to be addressed . I have no answer , I have no way to process what has been said let alone give the response that is needed or asked for. I want and need to understand what is going on in my mind and find a balance. I need those neurons to connect again (which ironically they are as I type this post- what does that tell me?).
My goal then would be to open my mind to both the positives and negatives in my life as both are there to help me grow. Of course not to hold onto the negatives but find a healthy way to take them in , process it, respond to it and then let it go.
I will post more as I know it is a necessity for me to live a fully conscious life .
Staying positive (maybe too positive)
Glad to be back!
I do believe the course for me was life changing and my focus has been primarily on my business and on my life. The course helped me build an amazing business plan as well as a life plan (not in the course but something I took from it).
I have felt and this is going to sound odd. That my brain is full. It has reached it's maximum capacity. I got all this wonderful information in Colorado that is in the front of my mind right now. However, I feel like I am capable of only accepting positive things in my life. It's like the negative filter in my brain is set on high and not allowing any negative words or actions in. This may sound ideal but I find it frustrating at times. When I am confronted with an issue that needs to be addressed . I have no answer , I have no way to process what has been said let alone give the response that is needed or asked for. I want and need to understand what is going on in my mind and find a balance. I need those neurons to connect again (which ironically they are as I type this post- what does that tell me?).
My goal then would be to open my mind to both the positives and negatives in my life as both are there to help me grow. Of course not to hold onto the negatives but find a healthy way to take them in , process it, respond to it and then let it go.
I will post more as I know it is a necessity for me to live a fully conscious life .
Staying positive (maybe too positive)
Glad to be back!
22.2.11
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The funniest clip ever!!!
This clip makes me laugh sooooooo hard everytime I hear it.
http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2010/08/ellens_favorite_moments_meeting_gladys_vod_0830.php?adid=ellens_favorite_moments_meeting_gladys_vod_0830_sphere_ellen&page=2
http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2010/08/ellens_favorite_moments_meeting_gladys_vod_0830.php?adid=ellens_favorite_moments_meeting_gladys_vod_0830_sphere_ellen&page=2
20.1.11
Clarity
Feeling wonderful at the end of a very long day. I am so enjoying getting to know the other realtors in my office and also other realtors from across the states. The energy is so positive and so encouraging with every person I have met. Imagine being in a room of 80 people all with the same energy . How can I not feed off of that? There is no egos just everyone focusing on the power of positive energy and how to achieve their goals. Today I stood up in front of the class and did some role playing with the instructor. 100% out of my comfort zone however I was not uncomfortable. I was no longer letting that fear control me. I was no longer making it about myself.
Believe it or not it was revealed to me today through a personality test that I am a "peaceful, party person" It was eye opening to me that these were traits I have always had but have kind of been denying and trying to be someone I'm not. I am now able to embrace these traits as part of who I am and there is nothing wrong with that!
My mind is so clear and so focused on the future and what needs to happen in my life from here on out to achieve my goals.
I need to and will do everything in my power to maintain this clarity and power I feel in my soul.
Staying positive and clear as I move into the last day of classes.
19.1.11
If you are afraid, you are thinking of yourself
I am so mentally exhausted right now but feel I need to reflect on this day. It was a very full day of learning and so much to take in. However the information that was being given was so very simple and straight forward. A step by step session leading me to my fullest potential. I promise not to take up three pages of my blog with all 10 hours of what I learned today . I will just share the highlights tonight.
The biggest statement that was said and truly hit home for me was If you are afraid, you are thinking of yourself. I do believe it was this fear that has been holding me back and until today I never understood the fear and was actually quite annoyed by this trait of mine. Now apparently it was all my ego that has been holding me back.
*The act of observation changes what is being observed
*Focus on production activities and production will take care of itself.
Of course there was sooooo much more that we learned and I am anxious to learn more . I am also excited to get home and start implementing everything that I have learned into my daily life.
I am so grateful to be surrounded by greatness!
Staying positive today, how could I not?
Nighty night blog
The biggest statement that was said and truly hit home for me was If you are afraid, you are thinking of yourself. I do believe it was this fear that has been holding me back and until today I never understood the fear and was actually quite annoyed by this trait of mine. Now apparently it was all my ego that has been holding me back.
*The act of observation changes what is being observed
*Focus on production activities and production will take care of itself.
Of course there was sooooo much more that we learned and I am anxious to learn more . I am also excited to get home and start implementing everything that I have learned into my daily life.
I am so grateful to be surrounded by greatness!
Staying positive today, how could I not?
Nighty night blog
18.1.11
Ninja
The need to blog!!!!
I just finished my first session of the Ninja training. I am so incredibly thankful for being in this program. This is 100 percent where I am supposed to be this week. I felt every word Larry Kendall was saying. My mind is open to his words and his wisdom. I couldn't wait to turn to the next page in our binders. I was questioning the need for breaks. Why do we need to break when we could still be learning? I kept thinking through the session about coming right back to my room and blogging immediately after, well everything is still fresh in my mind .
What did I learn?
-I learned I need to create value to my clients by believing I am valuable.
-Regardless of my personality , regardless of the market my success will be maintained through:
My mindset
My skillset
My actions!
*The true worth is determined by how much more you give in value than you receive in payment
-Avoid drama in my life
-Tho live a fully conscious life
*Setting goals is a function of the conscious mind. Reaching those goals is a function of the non-conscious mind
-The power of my beliefs are determined by my self-image, my self talk,my self belief
*You see through your eyes but you really see through your brain
-What I focus on will expand
-Setting goals is a function of the conscious mind, How to program my mind into believing in my goals by:
. Surrounding my self with friends and people that bring value in my life. - The average of the five people I surround myself with.
. Mentors in my life to guide me
. Everything in your environment either gives you energy or can take it away
. Books and thoughts to support who you are
. Meditation and gratitudes
. Visualization of your goals
. Affirmations that you are on the right track
-How to set and achieve my goals
1. State my goal
2. Make it a positive goal
3. Write it in first person
4. Write it in present tense 'now'
5. Use all five senses to help you believe in your goal
6. Anchor the goal
7. Work on all of the above for 30 days straight, then 30 more, then 30 more...
Sitting in the class was so very powerful for me as all of my blogs have in one way or another reflected what the instructor was saying. It was like he just organized all of my thoughts and refined them.
Thank you so much for this opportunity
Staying very positive and looking forward to tomorrow!!
I just finished my first session of the Ninja training. I am so incredibly thankful for being in this program. This is 100 percent where I am supposed to be this week. I felt every word Larry Kendall was saying. My mind is open to his words and his wisdom. I couldn't wait to turn to the next page in our binders. I was questioning the need for breaks. Why do we need to break when we could still be learning? I kept thinking through the session about coming right back to my room and blogging immediately after, well everything is still fresh in my mind .
What did I learn?
-I learned I need to create value to my clients by believing I am valuable.
-Regardless of my personality , regardless of the market my success will be maintained through:
My mindset
My skillset
My actions!
*The true worth is determined by how much more you give in value than you receive in payment
-Avoid drama in my life
-Tho live a fully conscious life
*Setting goals is a function of the conscious mind. Reaching those goals is a function of the non-conscious mind
-The power of my beliefs are determined by my self-image, my self talk,my self belief
*You see through your eyes but you really see through your brain
-What I focus on will expand
-Setting goals is a function of the conscious mind, How to program my mind into believing in my goals by:
. Surrounding my self with friends and people that bring value in my life. - The average of the five people I surround myself with.
. Mentors in my life to guide me
. Everything in your environment either gives you energy or can take it away
. Books and thoughts to support who you are
. Meditation and gratitudes
. Visualization of your goals
. Affirmations that you are on the right track
-How to set and achieve my goals
1. State my goal
2. Make it a positive goal
3. Write it in first person
4. Write it in present tense 'now'
5. Use all five senses to help you believe in your goal
6. Anchor the goal
7. Work on all of the above for 30 days straight, then 30 more, then 30 more...
Sitting in the class was so very powerful for me as all of my blogs have in one way or another reflected what the instructor was saying. It was like he just organized all of my thoughts and refined them.
Thank you so much for this opportunity
Staying very positive and looking forward to tomorrow!!
Colorado
I'm currently sitting in my hotel room waiting for my classes to start tonight at 6. This is such an amazing opportunity for me and I am so fortunate to have a broker who believes in me enough to send me to this course.
I honestly feel very off today, I am trying to clear my mind and focus purely on the course and the benefits it will have on my life. I plan on fully embracing this course and only (for the first time in my life) focus on myself and my needs with this course and really not concern myself with what I think other people are thinking about me. It's odd this little voice inside of me keeps telling me 'you don't deserve to be here'. Funny thing is a quieter voice is telling me 'you absolutely deserve to be here'! My goal today is to actually start feeling and believing that I deserve to be here. I wonder why I would do this to myself when I should be over the moon raring to go right now. Maybe I am just over analyzing myself today and giving this issue way too much attention.
Maybe because I am surrounded by such amazing people in this course that I find it hard to believe I too am one of those amazing people? I think that's it!! I am here for a reason, not only because of the faith my wonderful broker has in me, I 'm here because I deserve to be here! I have amazing potential and I believe only good can come from this course.
Anxious for the course to start, happy to have worked out the negativity today and now have the clarity of my mind to fully embrace this experience .
I honestly feel very off today, I am trying to clear my mind and focus purely on the course and the benefits it will have on my life. I plan on fully embracing this course and only (for the first time in my life) focus on myself and my needs with this course and really not concern myself with what I think other people are thinking about me. It's odd this little voice inside of me keeps telling me 'you don't deserve to be here'. Funny thing is a quieter voice is telling me 'you absolutely deserve to be here'! My goal today is to actually start feeling and believing that I deserve to be here. I wonder why I would do this to myself when I should be over the moon raring to go right now. Maybe I am just over analyzing myself today and giving this issue way too much attention.
Maybe because I am surrounded by such amazing people in this course that I find it hard to believe I too am one of those amazing people? I think that's it!! I am here for a reason, not only because of the faith my wonderful broker has in me, I 'm here because I deserve to be here! I have amazing potential and I believe only good can come from this course.
Anxious for the course to start, happy to have worked out the negativity today and now have the clarity of my mind to fully embrace this experience .
14.1.11
Success and Motivation
"Success is not to be pursued;
it is to be attracted by
the person we become."
As I go through this stage of transition in my life this statement could not resonate more with me. Success is my ultimate goal of course. However, I do know maintaining the clarity of my mind and the positivity in my heart is the only way to achieving the successes I want in my life.
I can admit this last week has not been the best for me in maintaining that clarity . After receiving one blow after another for the past month evidently it seemed to have caught up with me. I was still able to stay relatively positive through this time but I did find the clouds slowly rolling into my consciousness. That's okay though!!! the great thing is that I am still able to sit here and blog and reflect on these clouds. I am not beating myself up about them and I'm not pretending they didn't happen. I am aware that these clouds will come and go in my life and it's my choice as to how long they will hang around for.
Now to focus on what's next for me. I want to take these blows and use them as motivation.
Motivation as defined
What can motivate me to be the Jen I want to be? What can motivate me to be successful?
-I do know this blog is a major motivator. Somewhere to sit and just really focus on where I am in my life each day. I am grateful that I have found this outlet. I can honestly just sit in front of my computer and the thoughts just flow. I do find my self going through my day looking for experiences that I can write about. This awareness in my life is the key I needed to clarity and living a fully present life.
-I am hesitant to use negative experiences in my life as a motivator I would rather look at them as learning experiences and what I can take from them in a positive way. Then use what I have learned as the motivator.
-One motivator I should admit to is shopping. I went to the mall the other day (the first time in several months) . My budget currently does not include anything at the mall but walking through the mall and window shopping and feeling the frustration of not being able to purchase the $20 dollar dress I tried on . Was a very strong motivator for me. I have never before been in the position of having to choose food over clothes. Very humbling and a place I do not want to be ever again.
-The faith and encouragement my friends and family have in me to be successful. I want to be able to show them that I can do this.
Staying positive today as I live my fully conscious life.
it is to be attracted by
the person we become."
As I go through this stage of transition in my life this statement could not resonate more with me. Success is my ultimate goal of course. However, I do know maintaining the clarity of my mind and the positivity in my heart is the only way to achieving the successes I want in my life.
I can admit this last week has not been the best for me in maintaining that clarity . After receiving one blow after another for the past month evidently it seemed to have caught up with me. I was still able to stay relatively positive through this time but I did find the clouds slowly rolling into my consciousness. That's okay though!!! the great thing is that I am still able to sit here and blog and reflect on these clouds. I am not beating myself up about them and I'm not pretending they didn't happen. I am aware that these clouds will come and go in my life and it's my choice as to how long they will hang around for.
Now to focus on what's next for me. I want to take these blows and use them as motivation.
Motivation as defined
1. the act or an instance of motivating
2. desire to do; interest or drive
3. incentive or inducement
4. (Psychology) Psychol the process that arouses, sustains and regulates human and animal behaviour
What can motivate me to be the Jen I want to be? What can motivate me to be successful?
-I do know this blog is a major motivator. Somewhere to sit and just really focus on where I am in my life each day. I am grateful that I have found this outlet. I can honestly just sit in front of my computer and the thoughts just flow. I do find my self going through my day looking for experiences that I can write about. This awareness in my life is the key I needed to clarity and living a fully present life.
-I am hesitant to use negative experiences in my life as a motivator I would rather look at them as learning experiences and what I can take from them in a positive way. Then use what I have learned as the motivator.
-One motivator I should admit to is shopping. I went to the mall the other day (the first time in several months) . My budget currently does not include anything at the mall but walking through the mall and window shopping and feeling the frustration of not being able to purchase the $20 dollar dress I tried on . Was a very strong motivator for me. I have never before been in the position of having to choose food over clothes. Very humbling and a place I do not want to be ever again.
-The faith and encouragement my friends and family have in me to be successful. I want to be able to show them that I can do this.
Staying positive today as I live my fully conscious life.
12.1.11
The Love of a Child
The pure uncomplicated love of my son has helped me get back on track today.
With funds being tight I had planned a Gavin and Mommy day . Nothing too exciting, mostly errands and the purchasing of new lunch box for him. We had dropped Claire off at daycare and drove into High River just Gavin and me. We first stopped at the bank and as I was at the teller the older gentleman beside us hadn't noticed he had dropped his gloves. I had pointed it out to Gavin and he instinctively went to help pick up the mans gloves for him. However in typical Gavin style he had crouched down, picked up the gloves and still crouched lifted the gloves above his head and moved them back and forth like a snake for the man to see . The man, the tellers and myself all laughed so hard at how sweet and innocent he is. I then took him to the Salvation Army to look for some books and videos for them. He then said to me "why don't we look for a lunch box here?" He didn't care if it was brand new or where it came from . He was just excited that it was blue ! I was excited it was $1.50. I then said to him I would like to share a burger , fries and ice cream with him and we need to get gas. I asked him which one we should do first? His response was we should get gas first because he didn't want to have to push the car to get his ice cream. I am so fortunate to have this amazing child in my life. To remind me of the simpler things in life and find joy in every little part of my day. Thank you Gavin for giving me a glimpse into your little world today.
Now to stay positive as money is tight but love and joy is strong.
With funds being tight I had planned a Gavin and Mommy day . Nothing too exciting, mostly errands and the purchasing of new lunch box for him. We had dropped Claire off at daycare and drove into High River just Gavin and me. We first stopped at the bank and as I was at the teller the older gentleman beside us hadn't noticed he had dropped his gloves. I had pointed it out to Gavin and he instinctively went to help pick up the mans gloves for him. However in typical Gavin style he had crouched down, picked up the gloves and still crouched lifted the gloves above his head and moved them back and forth like a snake for the man to see . The man, the tellers and myself all laughed so hard at how sweet and innocent he is. I then took him to the Salvation Army to look for some books and videos for them. He then said to me "why don't we look for a lunch box here?" He didn't care if it was brand new or where it came from . He was just excited that it was blue ! I was excited it was $1.50. I then said to him I would like to share a burger , fries and ice cream with him and we need to get gas. I asked him which one we should do first? His response was we should get gas first because he didn't want to have to push the car to get his ice cream. I am so fortunate to have this amazing child in my life. To remind me of the simpler things in life and find joy in every little part of my day. Thank you Gavin for giving me a glimpse into your little world today.
Now to stay positive as money is tight but love and joy is strong.
8.1.11
Five People
"You are the average of the five people you surround yourself with most"
An article from Oprah.com talking about five different types of friends you should have in your life. They stated that even if you have one of these types of people in your life you are fortunate. I can name at least one person in my life for all five of these. How lucky am I ?! So having a fantastic social life and wonderful people to surround myself with- check. Now onto the next step. Believing I am worthy of all these people and proving it to myself. Gosh if I am the average of all 5 or even the average of each person I have in my life, I must be a pretty awesome person.
1. The UplifterThis woman's favorite word: yes. You could tell her you're trading your six-figure income for a career in offtrack betting, and she'd barely pause before yelping "Go for it!" Don't you need someone who looks past the love handles to notice the extraordinarily gorgeous you?
2. The Travel Buddy
When the hotel in St. Lucia is a bust, one characteristic becomes all-important: flexibility. This agreeable companion need not be the girl you traded pinkie swears with on the playground; it's enough that she's comfortable with quiet (between gabfests) and is a teensy bit mischievous (as in tequila after midnight).
3. The Truth Teller
Intent is what separates the constructive from the abusive. Once you've established that the hard news is spoken in love (not in jealousy or malice), you'd be smart to seek out this woman's perspective.
4. The Girl Who Just Wants to Have Fun
One Saturday a pal and I—and yes, we're both over age 12—pored over every glitter lip gloss in a drugstore aisle for an entire 45 minutes. Forget the crisis download (for that, see the Uplifter); this partnership is about spontaneous good times.
5. The Unlikely Friend
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive," Anaïs Nin wrote. My friends—some twice my age, others half, some rich, others homeless, some black like me, others Korean, Mexican, Caucasian—have added richness to my life that only variety can bring.
Staying positive with a clear mind today.
An article from Oprah.com talking about five different types of friends you should have in your life. They stated that even if you have one of these types of people in your life you are fortunate. I can name at least one person in my life for all five of these. How lucky am I ?! So having a fantastic social life and wonderful people to surround myself with- check. Now onto the next step. Believing I am worthy of all these people and proving it to myself. Gosh if I am the average of all 5 or even the average of each person I have in my life, I must be a pretty awesome person.
1. The UplifterThis woman's favorite word: yes. You could tell her you're trading your six-figure income for a career in offtrack betting, and she'd barely pause before yelping "Go for it!" Don't you need someone who looks past the love handles to notice the extraordinarily gorgeous you?
2. The Travel Buddy
When the hotel in St. Lucia is a bust, one characteristic becomes all-important: flexibility. This agreeable companion need not be the girl you traded pinkie swears with on the playground; it's enough that she's comfortable with quiet (between gabfests) and is a teensy bit mischievous (as in tequila after midnight).
3. The Truth Teller
Intent is what separates the constructive from the abusive. Once you've established that the hard news is spoken in love (not in jealousy or malice), you'd be smart to seek out this woman's perspective.
4. The Girl Who Just Wants to Have Fun
One Saturday a pal and I—and yes, we're both over age 12—pored over every glitter lip gloss in a drugstore aisle for an entire 45 minutes. Forget the crisis download (for that, see the Uplifter); this partnership is about spontaneous good times.
5. The Unlikely Friend
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive," Anaïs Nin wrote. My friends—some twice my age, others half, some rich, others homeless, some black like me, others Korean, Mexican, Caucasian—have added richness to my life that only variety can bring.
Staying positive with a clear mind today.
6.1.11
The Key to my Success is my Belief in Myself.
The key though is maintaining that belief...
I do believe I am a good person to the core. I do believe I am a good mom. I do believe I am independent. I do believe I have amazing people in my life. I do believe in my career. I do believe in what does and can make me happy. I do believe in what I want in my life. I do believe in my goals. I do believe that this blog is my key.
It's amazing how lack of sleep can start to truly affect your mental stability. I need to put some focus on solid nights sleep and maintaining that clairity of mind. I feel once I start addressing the issues I have been ignoring for so long I will start to feel a sense of accomplishment. One issue at a time is all it will take.
I just had my girlfriend Tracy and her girls come out yesterday for dinner and then my girlfriend Michelle came out for lunch today. The way I feel after being with my friends is very simililar to a full nights rest. So obviously getting out of the house and being with people is part of who I am and what I need in my life.
The Key to my Success is My Belief in Me (and a better understanding of Me!)
Staying positive with the help of my friends.
I do believe I am a good person to the core. I do believe I am a good mom. I do believe I am independent. I do believe I have amazing people in my life. I do believe in my career. I do believe in what does and can make me happy. I do believe in what I want in my life. I do believe in my goals. I do believe that this blog is my key.
It's amazing how lack of sleep can start to truly affect your mental stability. I need to put some focus on solid nights sleep and maintaining that clairity of mind. I feel once I start addressing the issues I have been ignoring for so long I will start to feel a sense of accomplishment. One issue at a time is all it will take.
I just had my girlfriend Tracy and her girls come out yesterday for dinner and then my girlfriend Michelle came out for lunch today. The way I feel after being with my friends is very simililar to a full nights rest. So obviously getting out of the house and being with people is part of who I am and what I need in my life.
The Key to my Success is My Belief in Me (and a better understanding of Me!)
Staying positive with the help of my friends.
4.1.11
2011 Horoscope
I had read in the news paper the other day my 2011 horoscope. I used to be big into horoscopes but haven't read them in years. The one thing I did take from the half page of predictions of my life for 2011 was a mantra. The Key to my Success is my Belief in Myself.
So what can I do to fully believe in myself?
-Accomplish something everyday
-Stay true to the person I know I am
-Keep blogging to maintain awareness and positivity in my life
-Stay focused on my attainable goals and on how I will feel once I have reached those goals
-Surround myself with positive people in my life
Staying focused and positive today
So what can I do to fully believe in myself?
-Accomplish something everyday
-Stay true to the person I know I am
-Keep blogging to maintain awareness and positivity in my life
-Stay focused on my attainable goals and on how I will feel once I have reached those goals
-Surround myself with positive people in my life
Staying focused and positive today
3.1.11
To Blog or not to Blog?
To Blog or not to Blog? that is the question. Yesterday I made the decision to not blog . Even though I made the conscious decision to have the post page open on my computer all day,sitting there encouraging me. I will admit that my mind was very clouded by an emotional blow I was dealt later in the afternoon. After that my mind body and soul just shut down. I was consumed by the negativity and by the event ,that nothing could flip that switch. I came to my blog and watched all the videos that make me smile. I reread my entries that forced me to think. My mind was constantly telling me to Blog ,constantly telling me to put the garbage out and constantly telling me to snap out of it.
So what happened you ask? why did I let myself slip into the darkness. I don't know really. I do know I can not beat myself up about it though. It happened , it's done, it's another day! I do want to reflect about what I learned from yesterday though, because there had to be something learnt from everything right?
What I learnt was this.
I am going to be dealt with emotional blows. It's alright to be hurt by them . Sometimes it may take longer to get over them then you planned.
It's alright to voice your pain to the person/ person's who hurt you always in a positive classy manner.
It's even better to choose not to engage in their childish games. I am proud that I did not respond.
After a somewhat solid night's rest I am ready to embrace today with a clear mind. After all it's a brand new day!
I have a drive to Red Deer today which will help me stay focused and clear.
Thank you to everyone who reads my blog. It's so wonderful to receive messages of encouragement from you and messages of how you can relate to this blog. I am very proud of this blog and grateful to all my friends who read it.
Staying focused and positive today!
So what happened you ask? why did I let myself slip into the darkness. I don't know really. I do know I can not beat myself up about it though. It happened , it's done, it's another day! I do want to reflect about what I learned from yesterday though, because there had to be something learnt from everything right?
What I learnt was this.
I am going to be dealt with emotional blows. It's alright to be hurt by them . Sometimes it may take longer to get over them then you planned.
It's alright to voice your pain to the person/ person's who hurt you always in a positive classy manner.
It's even better to choose not to engage in their childish games. I am proud that I did not respond.
After a somewhat solid night's rest I am ready to embrace today with a clear mind. After all it's a brand new day!
I have a drive to Red Deer today which will help me stay focused and clear.
Thank you to everyone who reads my blog. It's so wonderful to receive messages of encouragement from you and messages of how you can relate to this blog. I am very proud of this blog and grateful to all my friends who read it.
Staying focused and positive today!
2.1.11
1.1.11
12 days of this blog!
Just realized that today is day 12 of this blog and this is my 48th post. Good lord that's a lot of posts! I am so proud of myself for every one of these posts though. I find myself scrolling through the pages and re-reading them over and over or watching the video clips just to find a smile and get my bearings to remind me I am on the right path.
I do find it interesting that for many years I have been reading quotes and inspirational books but have never really taken any of them to heart. Maybe because there is just so many quotes and theories out there that one can become over-whelmed by them. Now I have this blog that I can filter through what I have read and learned and only use/post what is relevant to me and my life's goals.
Staying Positive
I do find it interesting that for many years I have been reading quotes and inspirational books but have never really taken any of them to heart. Maybe because there is just so many quotes and theories out there that one can become over-whelmed by them. Now I have this blog that I can filter through what I have read and learned and only use/post what is relevant to me and my life's goals.
Staying Positive
Happy New Year!!
My New Years Eve was perfection! I was able to enjoy the night exactly how I wanted to enjoy it. Started with an early sushi dinner with a friend at my favorite sushi place in Alberta , Yokozuna in Okotoks. I got home at 7:30 and popped in my first blu-ray purchase Sweeny Todd and a glass of red wine. There is something about musicals that always make me smile. I was grateful to enoy the evening like that. I went to bed at 10:30 but was not able to shut my mind off. So I watched a replay of the ball dropping in New York and then watched a clip on youtube of Auld Lang Syne , that song always makes feel reflective. It really did feel like I was starting a new. Then I watch clips of Kids say the Darnedest things and had some deep belly laughs. Perfection!
I know I had said earlier that I did not want to use the January first cliche of starting anew. However, here I am with a brand new Brownline daytimer telling me otherwise.
I've got my journal with my 3 attainable goals and I've got my Brownline on top of it. These two books will be with me for the next 365 days. They will be a constant reminder of the attainable goals I have set for myself. I have set goals for myself in the past however this year is different. I believe in myself! I believe I can reach these goals and believe in the feelings I will have next Jan first when I have reached or exceeded these goals.
What steps am I taking to reach these goals?
I will believe in these goals
I will feel these goals
I will focus on these goals
I will devote my next 365 days to attaining these goals
What daily steps will I take to reaching these goals?
I will continue to blog
I will make a conscious decision everyday and ask myself is this day is working towards my goals?
I will look for more things everyday to help me achieve these goals.
I won't just talk about them . I will act on them.
Cleaning my house today and staying positive!
Happy New Years!
I know I had said earlier that I did not want to use the January first cliche of starting anew. However, here I am with a brand new Brownline daytimer telling me otherwise.
I've got my journal with my 3 attainable goals and I've got my Brownline on top of it. These two books will be with me for the next 365 days. They will be a constant reminder of the attainable goals I have set for myself. I have set goals for myself in the past however this year is different. I believe in myself! I believe I can reach these goals and believe in the feelings I will have next Jan first when I have reached or exceeded these goals.
What steps am I taking to reach these goals?
I will believe in these goals
I will feel these goals
I will focus on these goals
I will devote my next 365 days to attaining these goals
What daily steps will I take to reaching these goals?
I will continue to blog
I will make a conscious decision everyday and ask myself is this day is working towards my goals?
I will look for more things everyday to help me achieve these goals.
I won't just talk about them . I will act on them.
Cleaning my house today and staying positive!
Happy New Years!
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